helLlord

I haven’t found a higher power to trust
more than equilibriums.

I haven’t found the solace and order
that should underline the chaos of my life.

But when I think about the
molecules that went into your body,
I count my blessings in exponents.

The second someone passes,
they write their way into poems that aren’t theirs.

Granddaddy steps into a chicken car, waving. Giggling.
The day someone dies, you worry much too hard about

whether or not they’d like what you’re writing, if it would
bother them if you wrote about someone else.

You wonder if they can see what you’er doing, writing,
thinking. You wonder if your worrying disturbs their rest.

If you are sure you don’t believe in these things,
you wonder why you wonder about them.